it’s cool to care

this morning

I was driving in my car this morning when a thought came into my head:

“It’s cool to care.”

I’m not exactly sure where it came from, but I think I know what it means.

Lately, I’ve been working quietly toward a few goals. I haven’t shared them with many people because they feel… sacred.

There’s a quote I once heard on the Huberman Lab Podcast that stuck with me:

“The positive feedback we get when we announce a goal can activate reward systems in the brain that actually reduce the likelihood we’ll do the work to achieve it.”

So I’ve been keeping these things close.

But I had a few real life moments where it felt natural to share these goals but I decided to zip my lips. Later I was reflecting on these conversations and I started questioning my reasoning for keeping these goals to myself.

Am I keeping these goals private because they’re sacred…

or because I’m scared to admit that I care?

I’ve had it on my heart for a long time to do two things..

1. lose ten pounds (and keep it off)

2. pursue my passion for writing.

And I’ve actually made real progress in both.

But there’s been some limiting beliefs coming to the light throughout the process of each of these.

What if people think it’s vain?

What if they think I’m silly?

What if they wonder… who does she think she is? 😣

maybe i’ve always cared

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been surrounded by people who didn’t seem to care — or at least didn’t want to show that they did.

So there’s always been this internal tug.

I care so much.

But caring feels vulnerable. So maybe I should just… not.

Because caring can feel embarrassing. It can feel like you’re taking life too seriously while everyone else just seems to be floating through it. Who can relate?

But what if that feeling, that sense that there’s more, is actually something worth listening to?

What if becoming who you’re meant to be starts with simply admitting:

I care. I want more.

If you come from a long line of people who learned to pretend not to care as a form of protection, it can feel so unnatural.

But I’m starting to realize how important it is to stop pretending. Because the life you actually want?

It begins the moment you stop pretending you don’t care about it.

And just say it…..

I CARE. A LOT. And that’s not embarrassing at all. It’s the beginning♥️